The Diary

Diary Entry # 9: Leaders

Simply Phillip Brown — Sat, 04 Feb 2012 23:19:28 +0000

A leader is someone who is able to bring the best out of others, who is able to inspire others to be bigger than who they are, who is able to energize people into action, who is able to lead a way with a common vision. Contrary to what many think, leadership doesn’t begin when you lead a group of people; it begins in our everyday life, with how we conduct ourselves and how we live our lives. I am a leader, born to lead. This is the exact reason why I am heavily pursuing becoming a professional Life Coach. You Are the CEO of Your Life and I can teach you how.

Diary Entry # 8: Through The Pain

Simply Phillip Brown — Tue, 24 Jan 2012 19:19:36 +0000

When you lose someone, a pet or a dream that has been very precious to you, the grief is intense. Pain, memories, and questions can easily haunt you. You may feel that you’ll never be the same again; never really laugh, never recover, never be whole again. You may feel that life will never be the same because this gaping big hole where that person or being once was will swallow you up and never let you see the happier side of life again.

I miss you so much, I can’t even type this without crying, but I have faith in the promise that I will see the sun shine on my life again. And that I will become a compassionate, feeling, laughing and hopeful human being once again in time. Through my pain, I will heal, I will survive!

Diary Entry # 7: New Beginnings

Simply Phillip Brown — Sun, 01 Jan 2012 15:10:48 +0000

As this year comes to an end, a new one awaits. As a chapter closes in our lives, a new one begins. This past year has been a wonderful journey – and with an end comes a new beginning.

This new beginning is just a reminder of how important it is to take the time to pause and reflect.

Nothing in life is permanent. Everything is temporary. With everything always changing, it is crucial to live in the moment. Be aware of the present. Fully enjoy what you are doing while you are doing it.

Diary Entry # 6: Quitting

Simply Phillip Brown — Sat, 24 Dec 2011 18:00:24 +0000

Listen when I tell you this, that there is nothing wrong with a quitter. Sometimes quitting can be the best decision you will ever make. When there is nothing more you can do for a person or in a situation, let go and let God!

Diary Entry # 5: One Thing

Simply Phillip Brown — Sat, 29 Oct 2011 04:09:13 +0000

Have you ever thought that if one thing hadn’t happened, a whole set of things never would have either? Like dominoes in time, a single event kicked off an unstoppable series of changes that gained momentum and spun out of control, and nothing was ever the same again.

Diary Entry # 4: It Goes On

Simply Phillip Brown — Sun, 11 Sep 2011 07:22:50 +0000

I kinda miss the bond we shared. I mean, who wouldn’t miss that comfortable feeling with a person. Where we could talk for hours about everything, anything and not have a problem with the silence in the middle. Can’t forget all the ridiculous stuff we did. Stupid or not, everything was just so fun. Endless nights, real talks, the “remember whens” I remember it all. And it’s funny what life does, how it could just give you things and take it away so soon. I really can’t get it to my head that you grow distant from people and that good things come to an end sooner or later. But along the way I learned one thing about life; it goes on, you just gotta pick yourself up and learn to keep up.

Diary Entry # 3: Today

Simply Phillip Brown — Tue, 06 Sep 2011 16:06:32 +0000

I can’t tell you what today will bring, so take every chance you are given just in case you don’t have tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow to depend on. Forget about your fears and how you can’t and why you won’t. Tomorrow may never come, so do it now, do it today and don’t by any means be afraid.

Diary Entry # 2: Truth

Simply Phillip Brown — Sat, 12 Mar 2011 15:27:29 +0000

I gotta speak the truth, cause the truth will set me free right…..well at least that is how the age old statement goes.

Well, here I go…

Dear God, I’m not happy, and even though I walk around wearing this mask, you know the one everyone; the one where you pretend like life for you is so incredibly great when inside you’re a hot bubbling mess. I know this simply because during my time spent alone in the privacy of my own home, I realize that happiness will never be attainable, as long as I continue to hold onto things that I know deep within my heart that I must let go.

I see the warning lights, the flashing signs, wrapped in pigeon sent messages my heavenly father send’s my way, but even though the mind wants to follow, the heart for a time ignored the multiple trouble signs.

Dear God,

If I can, is it ok, if I ask you a quick question?

Why must things be the way they are, how can people do the things they do, without any remorse, without even a percentage of a conscious.

I tell you caring for someone who could care less about you, is the worst pain anyone could live, the whole time, and your left hoping that one day they’ll change.

The things you do for them seen as more of an expectation, yet becoming nothing more then a burden, instead of a favor done in kindness.
They treat you like nothing more then a mere useless piece of trash, throwing you away one day, only to play with your emotions coming back to pick you right back up the next.

I gotta stop for a minute….

Taking a deep breath I slowly try to begin typing once again.

Where did I leave off? I whisper in the black silence of my mind.

Oh Ya…..like I was saying.

Holding on to someone, who is for a season, when I wanted very much so for it to be forever, that is where all my problems arose, the truth is I knew 4 years ago that I had my hands full with this relationship because early on, it seemed to consume me, taking my emotion, energy, heart, mind, and soul, but we as humans tend to get a little bold in our thinking at times, because somehow we believe we can prove God wrong, that lord, yes this will work, I just need a little more time.

Four years later, still no results, time well spent you say…no I say time wasted and that time I wasted, I will never get back…..

Forgive me my heavenly father, for not listening when you told me to let it go, but thank you for allowing me to walk the road that we as humans sometimes unknowingly choose to walk, cause in doing so I have also learned.

I no longer am going to fight on this issue anymore, and as I look into my mirror, I am no longer gonna continue to wear this mask, everything isn’t for everyone folks, and life has proven that this relationship is definably not for me.

If you’re reading this – I love you, but In order for me to be Ok, I gotta let you go……….

Choosing to be or not be happy, well, my decision is simple,

I choose to be happy.

Diary Entry # 1: Restored

Simply Phillip Brown — Sat, 04 Sep 2010 13:41:34 +0000

Remember believing in something or someone and your trust was destroyed? Everyone has had those times but little did we know it, they were defining moments in our lives. It’s not the incident itself but how we process the incident that determines the condition that our heart takes on and therefore the direction we take in life.

A friend of mine posed this question to me: “If I tell you the truth — that I lied to you — can you still trust me?” Clearly the answer is “yes”. The secret of creating trust right from the beginning is to have a conversation that goes something like this, “I have betrayed other people. I may betray you sometimes and you will probably betray me. We will try to avoid it, but when it happens we will deal with it together.”

I have been in relationships with people who proved untrustworthy. They could have spared me — and themselves — a lot of grief by being honest about their untrustworthiness. They might have said to me, “Sometimes I tell white lies; often I tell black ones. I might even sleep with someone else and not tell you about it. Do you want to have sex and romance with me on these terms?” If I had answered “yes”, I would have gone into the relationship with my eyes open. At least I would have had a choice.

Making a long story short, my trust in a particular person has been restored, I am not sure how this person did it, but I thank God that this person did it.